Everyone seems to deal with heartbreak differently. Normally we go through the regular 5 Stages of Grief, which are: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance. The stages may vary from person to person. The order may change, and some steps may be removed or added.
Some people will become emotionally numb. Some people may say that you are “dead inside. Your heart is no longer broken, it is gone. It has been stolen. It may be a while until you start to feel again. Just don’t get comfortable. Being “dead inside” isn’t as glamorous as it sounds. Sometimes, in one stage you will see your ex everywhere you go. A 12-year-old one-legged Chinese boy with an eye patch will remind you of your ex. You will see their car everywhere. You will see their face everywhere. You will hear their voice everywhere. It is like the Stabbing Westward song “Haunting Me”:
At one stage when you feel angry, you might feel like Stabbing Westward “Darkest days”; “There are times when I'm just a shell ,when I do not feel anything for anyone, all I feel is hollow and bruised, used up and misused, forced to be someone I don't want to be. Have I failed somehow or some way? Will the weight of today finally pull me down to drown in the depths of despair? Where I am alone, except for my rage. My rage. My pain. I hate my darkest days….”
After going through the darkest realms inside of yourself where your inner demons dwell, be careful not to come out of this as a serial killer, and don’t kill yourself. When this is over: you are going to look different, you are going to dress different, and you are going to feel different. Basically, you will be a whole new person. You’ll either gain or lose excessive amounts of weight. You’ll probably going to start dressing like a dark angry bad ass. You’ll either be full of hatred, or full of nothing.
No matter what happened during your ordeal, you got out alive. Now go live your life, and get your heartbroken by someone else so that you can go through all this again. At least next time you will know what to expect.
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